These are not my hands. I control them as if they were, but they belong to something else. If I run them across the whiskered walls, it tickles but in an abstract way, like prodding a leg that has fallen asleep. I’ve cut myself so honey and rice seep from the wound; when mixed with the whiskers it makes a stain of black under the blue, blue light.
I was another creature once, but now that’s far away. In times like these, the first response is to test communication.
—Hello?
I think there won’t be a reply, but I wait for one anyway and it comes after clocks have long stopped working.
—Do not greet me as an equal.
What a funny thing to say, now if only I could remember how to laugh.
Here I say, —Lift up yourself and show me a face or speak a name.
—Commands? There is cruelty in the sardonicism.
—Please?
My body is meat, and I understand at once the humor in my request. Speech is for the time-locked and a face cannot be shown from the inside out.
—Oh, I say —These aren’t grains of rice and this isn’t honey.
Laughter.